Chapter 14 - Speak To Me

(Gabriella)

I bit my lip anxiously before staring up at the ceiling. I was now lying on the examination table as the doctor brought out an ultrasound machine.

He had just done the pelvic exam and I felt so freaking awkward during the whole thing but there was a nice nurse named Maisy who held my hand the whole time.

My dad and Jamie were waiting outside and the doctor said this would be the last thing and then we could leave.

"I'm just going to put this gel on your pelvic area okay?" Dr. Stevens explained, making me nod as the nurse Maisy fiddled with the machine a little.

Dr. Stevens was an older man in his fifties and had mocha-colored skin with grey hair. He had kind brown eyes..not as beautiful as Jamie's but still very warm and comforting.

"Okay, let's have a look." He began before gliding the wand thing over my stomach area.

He said a few medical terms to Maisy as she wrote them down and then it was over..that's how quickly it all happened.

"Okay, you can get dressed and we will meet in my office to go over the results." Dr. Stevens informed me before helping me sit up and passing my back in a comforting motion.

I thought he would tell me first at least..now I'm even more nervous than before. But Jamie said he would marry me no matter what..he really said that.

My dad wasn't too happy about me moving in with Jamie..just because he was afraid I would be pressured to do something I was not ready to.

But who says I'm not ready? I mean..I am twenty-one..

I slipped on my jeans and shirt before opening the door and stepping outside.

That's when Jamie rushed towards me.

"Are you okay?" He asked worriedly as I nodded yes and felt my cheeks turn pink.

"Come on, let's go hear the results and get out of here." Jamie spoke sweetly before reaching out and offering me his hand.

I took it gently, feeling my stomach do a million flips as I placed my hand in his.

"Let's go into Peter's office, your dad will be joining us on a conference call." My dad explained while walking up to us.

I hadn't realized it would be this big of a production..

We walked through the hospital and came to a door surrounded by large glass windows.

My dad knocked softly as Dr. Stevens invited us in.

Jamie looked down at me, his eyes locking onto mine before he bent down and placed his mouth next to my ear.

"No matter what, I still want to marry you..okay?" He reassured me as I felt my eyes filling with tears...I don't know why that made me feel so emotional..I guess just hearing him say it made me really really happy.

I bit my lip and smiled up at him before squeezing his hand, and then we walked into the office and Jamie helped me sit down.

"Okay, Mr. Sinclair, I have your son and Miss Kensington here along with her father." Dr. Stevens spoke to the phone on his desk..

"Okay, let's get to the results, I have a meeting in ten minutes." Mr. Sinclair snapped, making me swallow hard as I sat in the chair awkwardly. He was always so intimidating..

"Of course sir. From the tests and samples I gathered, I have concluded that Gabriella Kensington is a very healthy young girl. Her ovaries are functioning perfectly and there are no symptoms of infertility. Considering she is a virgin and hasn't had any form of birth control I would say she is the perfect candidate to get pregnant." He announced, making embarrassment rush through me as he aired out all that stuff in front of everyone..

Oh god..how embarrassing! I saw my dad shuffle awkwardly as Jamie squeezed my hand reassuringly before leaning down.

"Hey, there is nothing to be embarrassed about okay?" He whispered sweetly before looking at me intently. I nodded once, fighting the urge to bite my lip as his stare alone made my body turn to jelly..I swear everything around us faded away as I stared into Jamie's honey eyes.

"Son, did you hear me?" Mr. Sinclair boomed, interrupting our moment as my eyes darted away, seeing Dr. Stevens smiling widely.

"No sir, please say it again." Jamie confessed and I could still feel his eyes burning into me.

"I said that we shouldn't wait long for the wedding..the sooner the better." Mr. Sinclair stated eagerly as butterflies rushed through me.

This was really happening..

"Thank you, Peter, just fax over the results and I will speak with you later about pre-pregnancy care for Gabriella." And with that, Mr. Sinclair hung up, leaving me blinking rapidly..did he expect me to get pregnant right away or something?

Suddenly Jamie stood before reaching his out towards me.

"Come on, I will walk you to your car." He stated before helping me stand.

We headed towards the exit and I couldn't help but peek over at Jamie, noticing he was quieter now, and the way his brow furrowed made my stomach drop.

Did I do something wrong?

I reached up, pressing my hand against his arm as I got his attention.

At that moment, I wished I could just come out and say it..that I could ask him if he was okay and tell him how excited I was to marry him..I wanted to say his name..to see his face light up as I whispered his name sweetly.

"I will reach out to you tonight okay? I just have a few things I need to take care of first." Jamie explained as I just nodded once again and let out a sigh.

We said our goodbyes as Ivan opened the door for me before I slid in and sat in my seat. Dad came in beside me as his eyes studied me carefully.

"What's wrong bunny?" My dad asked as I turned to look out the window.

"Sweetheart..I thought you would be over the moon..why do you look so sad?" He asked as I felt my shoulders drop and I couldn't help but frown.

"Do you think Jamie wishes I could speak?" I signed slowly, making my dad sit there for a moment before sighing.

"I'm sure he would love it if he could hear your voice one day..but it doesn't seem to bother him. But sweetheart..perhaps you should try.." My dad explained softly before reaching out and gripping my hand.

I thought about his words, the mere thought of speaking made my chest tighten and anxiety filled me.

I was such an embarrassment to my family..I don't want Jamie to see me that way too.

I quickly shut my mouth tight and turned to look back out the window, feeling my dad's eyes were still on me.

"Gabriella..you will never know if you don't try.." He said sadly and let go of my hand as his words echoed through me.

I know I should try..I just..I don't want to fail again..I don't want to give a reason for Jamie to dislike me..plus, he doesn't seem to mind me being mute..it's the stutter I'm afraid he would hate..to hear me sound like a bumbling fool..

Maybe one day..but for now..for now I will just do everything I can not to screw this up. Because maybe Jamie will accept me..all of me one day..at least when I'm brave enough to show him.