(Caspien)
That meeting dragged on. What could have been dealt with in a day took almost four. It was obvious that he didn’t have the men for the job, and even though he had been Alpha for a while now, longer than I had even, he didn’t have a firm grip on his pack.
It was hard to tell if he was just doing a power play or if he really was hesitant to show his hand. We would have increased patrols on our shared border anyway until he could prove himself. One more rogue getting past his men and into my territory would be the last straw, and I made myself very clear on that matter.
As soon as we got back, I jumped in my car, heading off to where Willa worked, ignoring Holden teasing me.
I felt anxious, and I wasn’t sure if it was because I was about to see her or because I was nervous to find out what I feared most... that she was happy that I had left her alone.
I tried to steady my heart as I rounded the corner, taking a deep breath as my hand clenched the door of the restaurant. It was strange, this effect she had on me even when she wasn’t in front of me.
I walked in, and the familiar silence followed in my wake. She froze, and her beautiful eyes locked on mine; it made it hard to breathe. Her cheeks flushed slightly as she took a steadying breath. Something flashed across her face, and I couldn’t make it out.
Confusion? Anger maybe? Possibly both.
“Caspien.” She nodded formally. Even though her voice was flat, hearing my name on her lips felt good.
“Willa, how have you been?” I took the seat I normally did, and she slid me a coffee with cream.
“Fine.” She shrugged, turning her back to me.
Was she mad?
But was she mad that I was here or that I had left?
“Willa,” I repeated, my voice low, “Talk to me. What’s going on?”
Atlas was restless but provided no support or explanation. We were both new to this whole relationship, mate thing.
Her eyes settled on mine as she turned around, “I don’t know,” she huffed, biting her lip. “I don’t know,” She repeated.
“Did something happen?” I was immediately on edge.
She shook her head. “Where were you?” she whispered.
“I got called away on last-minute pack duties. I didn’t have time to tell you.” And I didn’t want you to think I was stalking you, I added silently.
She nodded, still chewing her lip, and turned to help someone that was sitting at a table behind me.
I sighed, pulling the warm cup of coffee towards me, wrapping my hands around it for something to do. I didn’t understand what was going on, but I sensed that it was somehow my fault.
She stood in front of me again, rubbing her arm. “I thought you weren’t coming back,” she admitted.
“What? That is never going to happen,” I said without thinking.
Her gaze snapped to mine, but I got a sense that she didn’t believe me.
“I’m in this for as long as you’ll have me.” The last part hurt to say out loud, admitting to the fact that this might not be forever, “I know you asked me before, and yes, I want a mate. I’ve been looking for you.” I didn’t need to tell her that I was looking for her specifically even before I knew she was really my mate.
(Willa)
My heart lurched, and warmth spread through me despite myself. D.amn logic went out the window as soon as his eyes locked on mine.
If he was called away for pack duties, he must be important. Even though I’d only seen him in a perfectly ironed shirt, I could tell that his body was honed for fighting. My eyes lingered on his arms, showing their width even confined under a suit.
I swallowed as his gaze didn’t leave my face. When he asked me what was wrong, I didn’t know how to respond.
I was hurt that he left but understood I had no ties to him, none that I claimed anyway. I don’t know what I wanted him to do. It made sense that he got called away, and he didn’t have my number to text me. He came back, and that’s what mattered.
I wasn’t mad at him, I understood, but it still hurt when he was gone.
“I know you asked me before, and yes, I want a mate. I’ve been looking for you.” He looked at me, and I swallowed against his intense stare.
“The mate bond isn’t infallible,” I responded, more to myself.
That was the thing with him, with being around him. I wasn't planning my words or felt like I had to hold back. With Nolan, even after months together, I still felt like I was playing a version of myself that I never felt completely comfortable in.
I'm not sure if it was Caspien or maybe I changed. Either way, it was nice to be able to have a conversation without thinking. He did things to me and affected me completely, but I was still comfortable speaking to him as my full self.
“It’s not, but I’m willing to take that risk,” he responded, reaching out a hand palm up over the counter, an invitation.
“With you,” he added.
I placed my hand in his hand instinctively before logic caught up to me. Iris was dancing in my mind as sparks flooded through me.
“I want to make sure that you actually know me before you make that decision,” I said. I wanted to get to know him as well.
Besides the comfort he brought, his insanely handsome face, and probably cushy job, I needed to know that he was right for me; and me for him.
I needed to know that there was something there that wasn't superficial and was deeper than the bond. I had to make sure that he was good, not only for me but for Emmett. Bringing a man into Emmett's life was a whole other thing. We didn’t talk that much about him, but we didn’t really talk about much anyway.
“Also, take my number, so if you, you know, have to leave again..” I trailed off, and a smile brightened his dark features. He seemed to relax a bit after that.
“So let’s get to know each other. You know what pack I’m from, and we know what each other does for work. You told me you have a son and are starting college. Tell me everything else.” He leaned back once I slipped my palm from his, but the sparks still lingered on my hand.
I nodded. “I’m from Blue Ridge. It's small enough. Probably a little over an hour away from here.”
“I know,” he said, averting his gaze for a moment.
He knew what? That I was from Blue Ridge, or he knew of Blue Ridge.
I didn’t say anything, waiting for him to go on.
A smile slowly spread across his face, but it wasn’t one of his real ones. This one seemed to be one he pulled from his mental closet of masks. I snorted at the thought, and his expression turned blank.
“You’re getting too good at that. Leaving the question lingering until you get the answer you want," he said.
“You do it too,” I countered, and he nodded once.
“I do.” A real smile tugged at his face. “I know you’re from Blue Ridge.”
I leaned back and crossed my arms. He seemed nervous for some reason; it seemed so out of place. My last table left a few minutes ago, and I had all the time in the world for whatever he was about to confess.
Stalking me? Researching me? I had no idea; I didn’t know if I really wanted to know, but I needed to.
“I met you before.” His eyes shifted to mine, and I dropped my arms, not able to keep up my casual stance.
I flicked through my memories. I didn’t remember seeing him ever. I would definitely have remembered him; he was someone I wouldn’t have forgotten even when I was.. Well, when I was mated to Nolan.
Caspien had a presence unlike I’d seen before. Even if I passed him in a hall or attended an event where he was across the room, I was sure I would remember.
“You don’t remember.” His voice was steady. “I pieced that much together. I wasn’t sure at first when you..” He let the rest hang.
“When I ran away,” I sighed, thinking of the first time I saw him. Well, that wasn’t the first time, apparently.
“Yes.” A faint smile appeared,.“That.” He ran a hand through his midnight hair, and my mouth felt dry. I wanted to do the same. I wanted to see if it was as soft as it looked.
“I wasn’t sure if you ran because you knew who I was and was afraid of me or if there was something else. I couldn’t come up with any other reason until you explained that you weren’t looking for a mate.” His words took me out of my thoughts.
“When did we meet?” I studied his face. I would surely have remembered, especially if he did.
He looked away, something he rarely did.
“It was the night of the now Alpha of Blue Ridge's birthday." His words settled over me. "Five years ago.”
I swallowed. Thinking of that night still made my heart clench, and my stomach tighten. I blinked a few times, worried I would cry.
I looked at him, and something like worry seemed to fill his eyes. “Go on,” I urged, even if the last thing I wanted to hear about was that night.
I wondered if he was there and heard me get rejected. I don’t know if I could live with that embarrassment, but he was still here now, even if he witnessed my most humiliating moment.
“I sat next to you. I tried to talk to you, but you seemed distracted.”
I bit my lip, thinking. That night was perfectly ingrained in my memory. Camilla strolled up in that dress, commanding Nolan’s attention, and I couldn’t do anything about it because I was f.orced to move down because the-
My eyes snapped to him.
Because the f.ucking prince was sitting in between us.