It was a very frustrating start to the day. Every time I smelt him, I had to act as though it was nothing. Every time he walked passed it killed me that I couldn’t speak to him.
I didn’t realize how hard this was going to be, is it hard for him, too?
It seems he is just moving along casually without any care for the world.
‘Remember this is what you wanted, I’m 100% sure Zander would have loved to mate and mark Saturday night when we saw him,’ Kia oh so helpfully reminded me every time I pined for him.
‘I know, Kia, I just wish it wasn’t so hard. I wanted to, at least, be able to speak to him a little bit. But even then, I don’t know what we could discuss.’
I wait for the girls at the steps by my locker. We always have lunch at the cafeteria and today is no different.
I feel a pull towards the football grounds, I walk towards the windows that open up all through the hallways to provide sunlight through the dark corridors.
I see Zander in a sports outfit with a red rugby top, black shorts, and black shoes. He is running around being a bit silly and stupid with his friends. Some of the cheerleaders are on the steps watching the boys. A pang of jealousy courses through me as the twins from Westfield sit there giggling at Zander.
Brooke and Mia, the identical twin wolves from Westfield are tall, stunning blondes. They always wear matching outfits. Today they are wearing white jeans, red heels , and red crop tops with leather jackets. Their parents are the Gammas of the Westfield pack, making them Gamma heirs.
Would I always feel this insecure with him being around others?
I must have been watching him too long, as he stopped a tackle from one of his friends he looked up in my direction, his eyes locking with mine. They were different from the other night, not a cold glare but not a friendly happy one either. I wasn’t sure what happened between us. I tilted my head questioning what was wrong. He just completely ignored me and looked away coldly.
Kia whimpers at the thought of him being angry at us, I am confused and getting upset myself. I wasn’t sure what I did, even if I did anything at all.
‘Can you contact Jace?’ I ask her.
‘No, I don’t know what’s happened,’ she mumbles .
I try to fight the tears that threaten to fall. What did I do? I only wanted to figure things out. I didn’t want to ever make him angry or hurt. I thought we left on good terms last Saturday.
As I stand there thinking of ways to try and contact him Chloe came up behind me startling me. “Hey, girl. You ready?” She asks, linking her arm with mine.
"Oh, hey! Yeah, sure. Lunch at the usual spot, right?" I respond.
"Yep. Is everything ok? You look distracted?"
"Yeah, I'm all good. Let’s go," I mumble back and turn around walking through the doors tothe cafeteria.
"So, I hooked up with Bobby on the weekend," Chloe blurts out as we walked.
I had to hold back a giggle, Bobby Enderson has been trying to get in Chloe's pants since she started cheerleading. He is the Alpha heir of the Riverview and has the same arrogance and cocky demeanour as most Alphas.
"Really?" I ask while trying not to sound so amused.
She looks at me and pouts. "I know I always said I didn't want to, but he asked me on Friday, we had study hall together and he isn't a bad guy," she continues her rant as we walk into the cafeteria.
I hadn't had much to do with Bobby, just that he is in our year and not a bad guy. He also sleeps around from what I have heard. I’m a little surprised Chloe gave in to going out with him, though. I guess we all have that one weakness.
I've had my fair share of guys asking me out but back in 10th Grade, it got out that I was waiting for my mate so everyone kind of stopped asking me since. It didn't exactly bother me much, I was true, after all. I was waiting for my mate, I just wanted to be the one to tell people rather than being in the rumour mill.
We make our way over to the table where Ollie and Brent are already sitting with Sam and Don. some of Ollie's buddies who he hangs out with and who are part of the football team this year with them.
I am somewhat surprised Chloe didn't say anything when we sat down, She and Don had a fling going last year. It seems that is well and truly over if she is going to go out with Bobby now.
We sit down and start chatting. The boys were being boys with their stupid talks and discussions about the football game and what girl was the flavour of the month. I see Skyla over with her pack. I guess they were sticking close together today, I smile and wave at her.
Just as I do Zander and some of the others who were on the football ground file into the cafeteria making all sorts of noise while lining up to get lunch. Thankfully, I had packed mine this morning and need notwith the crazy lines today.
As I dig into my lunch I felt a course of pain shoots through me so unexpectedly. It hurts like nothing I have ever experienced before. I could barely move.
'Kia, what's happening?' I whimper.
'Where's Zander,' she asked quietly.
I look around and see the twins all over him, one of them is kissing him on the lips moving her hands all over his body and the other is whispering something in his ear while playing with his collar.
My eyes blur with tears fighting to release the hurt and anger that flow through me, I tried to keep everything under control. This time Kia remained silent rather than the usual thrashing around trying to be let out.
I have never felt so weak, so humiliated. Even though no one knows we are mates, but we knew, and I thought it meant something to him. I guess I was wrong. I was so very wrong.
I don’t know what to do so I just get up and leave without a word to anyone.