LEX
I couldn’t believe what I read; these were books of horrors.
I could feel the anger build up as I kept reading. I didn’t want to read them all, but I knew I had to. But what was startling more than anything was how no one ever spotted it during the time, not even me, Jason, or her father.
I can look back now, and after reading the diaries, everything that made no sense made perfect sense. Most of the times she told us she was ill were when people beat her up. Roxie knew how to cover it up, and so damn well.
Blaze was angry and wanted to murder everyone mentioned in the diaries.
“I knew she should have been with us,” he said, bearing his teeth at me.
He snarled. “I know she was young, but we could have stopped all this,” he said.
I looked back at him; I knew he was right. But I also knew we would be sent to jail if I went anywhere near her.
I looked up from the diary I was reading and looked toward Jason. Anger and rage were written all over his face.
The tension and anger flooding this room made it hard to breathe and nearly set every one of us stir crazy. But it wasn’t the anger that flowed through us that was mainly hard; it was the guilt. The guilt of not knowing what was going on, but the guilt of how we treated her or what we said to her. Things that met as a joke were taken wrong.
The things she wrote about the parties and women that was a shock, as that was never me. It was all Jason, but her describing the sounds from my room was not what she thought.
I had more guilt, especially from what I read about Naomi.
I never knew that the girl was so evil, but what she put Roxie through made my stomach turn. The hatred the girl had for my mate ran deep, but there was no reason for it. I know Jason was reading the diary I read first, and I know he would say something about it.
I had no clue what was happening; if I knew, I would have stopped it.
The date I started reading on was when I found out that Roxie was my mate, but I never knew what happened that night. I remember meeting up with Naomi, but everything else was blank.
I never thought that Naomi would do that to someone, and thinking about it, she must have known that Roxie was mate when I did, as some of the stuff she told Roxie made me think she did.
“FUCK,” yelled Jason, pulling me from my thoughts.
I looked up at him, and his face was full of anger.
He glared at me, and I knew instantly what he had read.
“YOU FUCKING PRICK,” he roared as he stood up and marched over to me.
We were all still in Roxie’s room; Jason and Sofia were on the floor while I sat on the bed. Sofia did leave at some point, but I had no clue where she went.
I stared up at Jason, who had his fists clenched.
“Why did you have to pick that slut? Why her?” he said through clenched teeth.
I stared at him, but I didn’t say anything. I know when I met Naomi and how we got together. She was three years younger than me and was two or three years above Roxie. Naomi always made out that she was friends with Roxie, and during the time, I thought it was sweet as Roxie never brought anyone home. Well, she did twice, but she never bothered after that.
But looking back at it, Jason and I should have known better.
“I never knew about all the shit she pulled,” I said. “She never told me anything or even made comments; she never said anything.”
Jason growls, “that slut was the main feature in all my sister’s torment. She was also the one who beat her up so badly that she had to have stitches, not to mention the times that she pushed her head down the toilet and tormented her about how short she was, but you had to make it worse. You had to hurt my sister’s feelings by fucking her in the study the day she left. The day you made my sister leave,” he yells.
I stared at him.
I read that one too; Roxie caught Naomi and me in the study fucking. But what was more hurtful was what I said, and I knew it. The only thing that made it so real was that it was recently added to the diary. It looked like she added it in after, but how the hell did she get it back to the house? She never came home; I would have smelled her scent.
“You both are to blame,” says Sofia, making Jason and I look at her. Her eyes were holding so much emotion, but there was something there that even Jason never saw.
“You’re a fine one to talk, Jason,” she said as she moved up from the floor. “You were also a player, and I know what it is like to see everyone you have fucked, because many have told me repeatedly what you were like in bed. They want a rise out of me and me to react because they think I’m weak.”
Her eyes landed on me. “You’re the biggest pig I have ever met,” she said. Blaze stares back at her through my eyes but never says anything. “You knew what was going on. I don’t believe you ever thought about Roxie, not even the day you made her leave. No one who finds their mate would be fucking someone else. I know it comes crazy to think about, but what if it was the other way around? What if Roxie fucked around?”
I growled loudly, and Jason snarled.
Sofia looks at us; her face becomes even angrier.
“You are both jackasses; you seem to forget something. You both never bothered with Roxie, never bothered or truly wanted her here. Come to think about it; she made both of you the worst people around. What brother hates his sister so much that he tells his best friend she has feelings for him so he could get a rise of humiliation? And you,” she says, pinning me a look. “You knew something must have been happening; Naomi wanted to torment her. But you fucked her once your mate left, she wasn’t even out the door for an hour, and you were in her pants.”
I stared back at her, guilt riddling my body and knowing she was right. I was a slut, just like Naomi, and so was Jason. We knew everyone wanted us, and we didn’t even care whether it hurt anyone or not. But looking back, the one person we hurt more than anything was Roxie.
The bullying wasn’t just by Naomi; it was her whole friends. Even Amber was one of them. They set their sights on Roxie because she was Jason’s sister, but they also knew I was constantly around the house, as Jason was my best friend.
Sofia’s anger was aimed at both of us, and she is right. Roxie not only said everything about what happened to her but also commented on every little detail of the hurt from Jason and me.
“I won’t be surprised that Roxie never comes back after everything I read,” she said. She stares at us for a moment but walks toward the door, but she stops and looks over at us once more. “I will be showing Alpha Frank these diaries too, and I lied earlier; Roxie knows that you are
reading them as she permitted me to show them to you both. She wanted you both to know everything that went on.” With that, she leaves the room and walks out.
“You know she-wolf is right,” says Blaze.
I looked back at him.
I know he was pissed as he read things that had happened, something I blocked him from, as I wanted to be alone or just needed a release of frustration.
Blaze looks at me. “I won’t accept the rejection, mate said,” he says, making me smile. But he lets a low growl. “Don’t think I’m doing this for you stupid dumbass; I have wanted mate since I found her. I knew it was wrong because she was young, but looking back on what you were doing, screwing that pathetic slut. I wanted mate more. What you did was push me closer to my mate. We are from Alpha blood; we will feel our mate bond stronger, which causes it to affect us more. That’s why I was a horny wolf; I wanted mate, I needed her because you were with that slut.”
He stared at me and, realizing what he was saying, sank in. I caused the mate bond to be stronger, mainly because I was with Naomi.
Blaze looked at me with a glare. “You need to find a way to sort this out, dumbass, or you will be a lonely old man with no one to love you, and I will only show up when you need me,” he says and then places a block on me.
“Blaze, okay?” asked Jason.
I looked at him; he had now sat on the bed with me. I looked over at my friend, “no, he’s not. He’s threatening me to make it up to her, or I’m going to die a lonely old man,” I said. I sighed, “Blaze also thinks due to my whoring around, I might have made the mate bond stronger for us. He was horny only when Roxie was around, but I know it affected me. That’s why I was Naomi. I never thought she was like that; if I knew, I would have stopped it. Hell, I would have made her pay for what she did to Roxie,” I said.
Jason looked at me. “You have to make this right, Lex,” he says and turns away from me. “I had to choose between you and Roxie before, and if I have to choose again, I pick her hands down.” I knew that to be accurate, and I would never come between them again. It shouldn’t have happened the first time around.
I looked ahead. “I need to figure out how to make it up to her,” I said to him.
Jason was quiet for a moment, “I think you need to see something,” he said.
I looked at him, and he stared ahead for a few moments.
But he moves his hand to his pocket and pulls out his mobile. He goes and looks for what it is he needs to show me.
He looked over at me but held his phone. “I did some research earlier, as something happened,” he said.
I could feel the block come down that Blaze pulled up; he got closer. He must have been listening to our conversation.
Jason moved his phone. So I could see, and he started to play the video he wanted to show me.
I leaned over to watch it, but my eyes grew wide.