Two weeks have gone by since my heat started. Did I get my relief? Most definitely.
Xander took special care of me. He listened to my body and knew just what it needed as if he'd been through this before. He was gentle when I needed him to be and rough when I asked for it. He imprinted on me and that's how he knew what I needed.
Once my heat ended, I stayed a few days with him because of the imprint. His wolf was very possessive and would not let me leave. Did we continue to make love? Have sex? Fuck?
No hour went wasted.
Am I dying of guilt? Totally.
I'm guilty for neglecting my son for so long over an imprint. I was fully able to leave Max when I had his mark.
I'm guilty for enjoying it. I enjoyed it even after my heat. Xander was different. He definitely was not Max.
His sex was totally different. For an 18 year old, he sure knew his way around a females body. Max was great but he was supposed to be as he was my first but now after tasting Xander, I'm not so sure if he was my best.
I've been locked in my apartment for days now. Xander keeps coming to check on me but I asked him to give me space. This was all too quick for me. I have a newborn I need to raise. I'm not trying to draw attention to myself so Max won't find me. Being around Xander frees me in a way where I could risk it all and I have to think about my son more than anything.
Maybe after some time, I'll try it out with him. Whatever it is that we are doing.
Right now, the plan was to work on me. Being a mother first. That is my priority. My situation isn't ideal but I will make the most of it because my son deserves better from his parents. I will give him the world, whatever the cost. He will have a good upbringing and I will never neglect him again, especially for a man.
The claw marks had faded, thank the goddess but I could still feel a slight longing for Xander. It was faint but still there.
Am I pregnant? Thank the goddess not! I would've died. It didn't rain but I also paid the kind doctor a visit so I can rule out a CJ surprise. I could not handle another kid.
Tomorrow I was going to face Xander. Tell him I am not with child, although I think the doctor probably beat me to it. I will tell him where I stand with him and hope he understands.
If anyone was looking at my love life from the outside, they'd legit call me a social climber. Alpha after alpha. Athena definitely loved power.
'Damn right I do.. ' Athena responds back to me.
She also felt alive again. Felt like herself.
I just wonder if the imprint was able to break the soul tie between me and Max. If it did then Max will know that I found someone to give me relief during my heat. He will think I am marked.
I had to find a seer to find out what an imprint can do. How extensive the damage is.
One thing I know though is Xander's scent still lingers around me and I think it has more to do with the imprint than his seed trying to impregnate me. I mean I've showered enough times and the first day I was able to get away from him, I scrubbed myself for hours out of guilt.
I probably showered 5 times in one day to rid myself of his scent. I failed miserably and my skin felt sensitive for a minute.
I can really depress myself. I cleaned my apartment as if Dorothy doesn't do enough. She'd come in the morning to find the house smelling like chemicals but she didn't say anything to me. I think she understood.
I'd go to school, pay attention in class and go straight home right after. I would avoid Xander and more so now because all the girls wanted to befriend me since I was the new alpha's girl.
He hasn't taken a new girl since the imprint. I wonder if he could feel the longing like I could. If that was the case then his wolf really pulled a number on us. I thought an imprint goes away but now here I was with lingering side effects.
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Xander's POV
I was going crazy. Sabrina was avoiding me completely and I thought it would be okay to give her some space.
I'm not okay. I wanted her. Bad.
All day, every damn day I'm thinking of Sabrina.
What happened after her heat really changed me. I was a mess for her and yet I knew she was dealing with her own heartbreak.
No shewolf enticed me. They threw themselves at me but I couldn't get hard for any of them. I blame my wolf for that. He is only team Sabrina.
I just want her in my arms again. I never thought I'd feel this way again since my mate passed and this doesn't feel the same but I'm wholeheartedly in to Sabrina and I just hope she feels something for me too.
I'd give her time and not just a few days or weeks. I'll give her months or maybe even a year to heal but after that, I was going to win her heart. A woman so strong and yet so fragile. So beautiful but has the ugliness of the world on her shoulders.
She's an outsider so I know my father would want me to mate with someone from the pack but because my father is greedy, if he finds out about her power, he will arrange the wedding himself but I can't have him find out now. I had to let her heal, let her fall in love with me as I fell hard when she was in my arms.
I didn't want her for her power. It was an attractive trait no other woman in my pack can compete with and I made that clear on the first day of training. I fell for the girl that let me in even if it was for a brief moment.
She was smiling, oh what a gorgeous face. She was mesmerizing. Her knowledge on pack life was amazing and I'd learnt so much from her. She was captivating. She would make a great Luna. My Luna.
I'd take in her son. He is a lycan and her blood. If I was going to love her, I'll love her child. They'd both been through too much to go through this life thing alone.
One thing Sabrina doesn't know is I've been sneaking visits with Dorothy so I can get to know the little guy. I will take care of the both of them from a distance until I feel like it is time to make my feelings known. Until then, I will take no female. I will work on being a better alpha for my mate to be. I will give her the happiness she deserves and I will never let her feel the heartbreak she felt from both her mates.
I can't promise I won't ever hurt her feelings but I will spend most of my life making her happy. Starting with tjr surprises I have in store for her.
I had Lucas get some guys to pull it off. It will take a few months to pull all of them off but it will be worth it. I know she will love them.
Now I had a council meeting to attend with all alphas. Laws were going to be changed and they needed all packs to adhere to them. I know this was Maximus doing. If he really doesn't want his son to be heir, I'll raise him to take after me. A lycan as powerful as Sabrina will make him the most powerful alpha on the planet. Max won't know what hit him.
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3rd party POV
The council meeting was in full effect. An application was sent in from Green Forrest pack to change the laws but since they weren't the only lycan pack, other lycan packs were invited. If they agreed to change the pack laws then Max would have his way. The alphas were not happy and they made their distaste known.
Although it could be that the twins are bias. The laws affect their nephew who they've grown to love in the few days after Sabrina gave birth. Nobody really knew why alpha Xander disagreed really but he was not happy.
"Silence. I will let each alpha speak and we can then decide after. What we will not do is scream at each other. That will only delay us." Said one of the 3 council man sitting at the panel.
The twin alphas stood up.
"This is crazy. Adrastos is the rightful heir to the pack whether Max likes it or not. It is the way we have all grown up. Sabrina was his chosen mate, not just some play thing. Max himself is illegitimate to make such changes. He is not the child of two mates. His mother was one of Alpha Deacon's string of women!" One of the twins said.
"If we have to change the laws then we start with Max. His father did not obey lycan law when he gave Max the alpha position and the council said nothing. Now the council wants to strip a legitimate heir from inheriting his birthright. We will not vote to have this law passed." Said the other twin.
The council men nodded their heads and then turned to alpha Xander as If the twins didn't make a solid argument alone with their statements. Max was seated with a scowl on his face.
He couldn't disagree with the twins. He was not a Luna and alphas child. He had no right to the alpha position but everyone let him have it but now here he was taking that position from someone who by pack laws, was deserving.
"I agree with the twins. Our customs have never changed and we pride ourselves in our traditions. If we change them now, will we ever be true to ourselves?" Xander asks as he looks at the council men.
"Anyway, the final decision lies with all 3 of you and if you decide to allow Max's law to be passed then I apply to take in the abandoned heir and raise him to take on after me since we all get to choose any
child to be an heir. News of Sabrina's power has reached my pack and a lycan of that power would make my pack most powerful of them all." Xander says. A loud growl erupts from Max and all the males turn to him.
"Thank you Xander. We will take your application into consideration." One of the council men said.
Xander had a smug look on his face like he just won a big prize. I guess if he does get to take in Max's son then it will be a big win. No one could under play Sabrina's power. She was a strong force and Max was dumb to let that go.
Though I had a feeling, very soon, he would regret his decision.
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